Why I desire transsexual cock

I've thought about what it must feel like to have jus for a bit, a transsexual cock inside you. How ones nervousness is turned into extreme horniness upon seeing her cock for the first time. The thoughts that must race thru your head. How big is her she-cock?. Do I touch it? Do i lick the length of it or jus the very tip? How much of her cock can I swallow? Will she want to cum in my mouth? Do i swallow every drop or should i let jus a bit drip out of the corner of my mouth? Laying face down on a bed, legs spread wide, ass checks "twerking" all on its own (no matter how I try to stop it) while a long tongue enters my ass, licking it's walls, teasing me. Never, ever, have I been so fucking horny. I want to hear her ask me if I'm ready. I want to feel the nervousness about "will it fit" and/or, "will it hurt". I want to feel her she-cock slide into me, opening me up like a woman. I want to hear myself pant & grunt, maybe even scream a little bit because of how wide her she-cock is. I want to feel her nipples rub on my back as her she-cock finally reaches bottom. Hear her whisper "are you ok? How does it feel"? I want to hear myself beg for more. Begging her not only to fuck me harder & deeper but literally begging for her to cum inside me. I want to know if its possible to feel a cock explode in my ass. How warm will her nectar feel? Will I feel it? Will I be satisfied or do I try & fulfill my ultimate fantasy of begging to be spit-roasted?