Duality

John and I have been together for about 7 years now. We met at high school during what was the worst time of my life. I had a terribly traumatic childhood as my body developed into womanhood despite being born a boy.

As my confusion and depression worsened, my family were incredibly supportive and allowed my feminine side, my true self, to emerge.

I moved schools to keep my secret safe. After a number of months of private education at home I returned to school not as the pre-pubescent boy I had previously been but as a developing teenage girl.

When I was seventeen, I trusted someone who I thought was my friend with my deepest secret. In return, I became the gossip of the school and had some terrible times being bullied by both boys and girls. I felt horribly alone and the only thing that kept me going was my fascination with science and particularly chemistry. John was a classmate and the only person in the school who continued to treat me as a normal human being. We became close friends during that time and we both went on to study chemistry at the same university.

Our friendship gradually shifted and we finally fell in love. John became increasingly interested in my transgenderism and the drugs I was taking to maintain and improve my femininity. I think John was frustrated because the drugs took their toll on my sex-drive and I had little interest in sex and found it hard to get an erection. Because my sex-drive had never really evolved, I didn't feel as if I was missing anything although there were a few really intense moments with John which made me occasionally wish I was more horny more of the time.

John secretly began working on a drug to counteract the effects of my tablets and one day told me about his experiments. He showed me the effects his drug had on animals in the lab. His observations led him to believe that it would temporarily increase my sex-drive ten-fold and help me to maintain an erection for several hours. I was both shocked and flattered that he would devote so much time to helping me but was nervous about trying the drug. He assured me that he had not seen any side effects in the animals he had tested the drug on and that he felt certain it would work.